#kits letter

[kitherondaleswf]

ITS TOO LATE FOR A LOT OF THINGS NOW

BUT YOU WANTED THAT MORE THAN YOU WANTED ME

I REMEMBER I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU

YOU MADE YOURSELF A DIFFERENT PERSON THAN THE ONE I LOVED??????

[kitty-gray]

"You took yourself away from me" motherfucker you left the country

[liketheletter-l]

Guys. Guys he didn't actually want to go to space guys it was a JOKE

had sm fun with this one, details under the cut please check them out! (my scanner did a great job thank you canon mg2500)

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[buglaur]

this is kit, please commission some art from them on social bunny 🙏

[inkedbydave]

Ooh maybe Kit helping Tessa in the garden like in his last letter if your requests are still open?

My requests will be open untill the original post is still pinned! I will try to draw everything that I get untill then.

OMG THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN TO DRAW I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ANON

I might actually finish this one somewhen

Also I'm still crying about that letter daily

[crimson-dianxia]

i was drawing a meme and got distracted

[utahimeow]

just saw something you said about sheriff!wrio teaching you how to shoot his gun and it unlocked something deep in my brain that i didn’t know was there

thinking of his big, hard chest being pressed to your back and his strong arms wrapping around you and his rough yet warm palms covering yours, cupping both of your hands as they grasp the revolver’s handle.

“cock it,” he says. he’s so close that his warm breath tickles your neck and sends a wave of goosebumps along your skin. your thumb presses down on the hammer.

“point it right at where you’re aimin’… just like that,” he says, so raspy and deep that you feel it between your legs, and raises your arms just a little, until your eyes are perfectly lined up with your target on the other side of the gun.

“and pull the trigger.”

the gunshot rings in your ears as you fire. the recoil pushes you back into wriothesley’s chest, but it’s a rock wall that refuses to budge. the target is now marked with a brand new hole that’s almost at its centre.

his face, which rarely moves from a stoic gaze, has an uncharacteristic pride written all over its features.

“atta girl.”

[clockwork-carstairs]

“You made yourself a different person than the one I loved” – on Kit’s letter, his projections & idea of Ty

aka where i try to make sense of kit’s letter in the context of who ty was to him. basically i think that understanding that kit may not have had an accurate image of ty in his head helps to contextualise why kit believes the things he does, regardless of whether they’re fair to ty or not. it makes more sense reading lines like:

“in all the world, kit had never met anyone he believed to be so incapable of evil”

“all his energy had gone into ty, all his devotion and hopes for the future”

because you can see so clearly how much kit was projecting onto ty. ty, more than a friend—or whatever you might call it—was also the personification of this new world and all it meant for kit. kit saw him as this overwhelming force of good, beautiful as an angel, someone who not only wouldn’t do evil but was “incapable” of it.

so you can kind of see why everything was lost for kit once ty went through with the necromancy: because by doing so he was breaking the image kit had of him. of ty as a saviour of sorts from kit’s previous life, the person who convinced him to stay, who made kit feel like he was really a part of something, something magical and exclusive that not everyone got to be.

further evidenced by other lines:

“he had been too fixated on losing ty to tell him what he needed to hear” -> kit knows he should have told ty much sooner how he really felt about the situation. kit knows he deflected and in various ways lied to ty about trying to bring livvy back. but kit had wanted to stay by ty’s side, stay included in ty’s plans, more than his desire to tell ty the truth that he hated the idea.

“you made yourself a different person than the one i loved” -> ty as a person being shaped by kit’s projections of all his hopes and dreams, the face of this new world kit was drawn into, the first person he really got close to after he was pulled from one world to another, the person who convinced him to stay.

was the “person [kit] loved” an accurate reflection of who ty really was, flaws and all? unlikely. and the image of ty in kit’s head didn’t allow room for the real ty’s complicated, overwhelming grief, either, and the ways he would try to cope with it: and i believe this is part of why kit was so shocked by what happened and why he’s still so angry at ty. because ty proved to him that he wasn’t what kit believed him to be, and so all of kit’s hopes for his new life came crumbling down.

do i think it’s fair to ty? no, i don’t. but i think both can be true: that kit is upset and had gone through a traumatic situation, and has valid feelings about it while also understanding that he had a very skewed perception of ty that wasn’t fair to him.

mostly i think we need more room for understanding ty’s feelings*. how it must have felt to lose his twin sister in a horrifying way, devised a plan that (to him) seemed completely reasonable** only to have his best friend switch up on him last minute, tell ty he loved him mid-ritual, later say he wished he’d never met ty and basically tell ty that he was selfish and then on top of that leave without saying goodbye.

i also stand by my belief that “how long do you think it will take you to forgive me” is something both ty and kit could/should be asking each other, not just one way around. i honestly don’t understand why both kit and ty would think only kit needs to forgive ty and not both ways. mostly i just don’t think the narrative that ty’s the only one who needs forgiving is very fair, or makes much sense with their characterisation + the context + what actually happened.

in sum, when kit says “you made yourself a different person than the one i loved”, the person he’s referring to is an idealised version of ty whom he had projected all his hopes and dreams for the future onto, and by going through with the necromancy ty completely shattered kit’s understanding of him. this is consistent with other lines in his letter: “you wanted that more than you wanted me”, “when you brought livvy back, you changed yourself” (did ty really change? or did he just prove to be different from kit’s idea of him? genuine question), and perhaps most strongly evidenced by this line: “i don’t know the person you are now. you took yourself away from me. i can’t forgive that.” i don’t understand why he can’t forgive ty for not being the person kit thought he was, nor how on earth ty was supposed to know this, but i digress.

* i hope this is addressed in TWP because between TDA and now, we’ve had FAR more insight into kit’s thought processes than ty’s and as such we’re only really seeing one side of the situation.

** i also think part of the glaring misunderstanding between kit and ty can be understood from their respective backgrounds. obviously for kit, growing up away from the shadowhunter world, something like necromancy is completely out of the question. the way it would be for you or me. but ty grew up in a world where bringing people back to life was something that could and had actually happened. so it’s a far crazier, more impossible idea to kit than it would’ve been to ty.

[midnight-stargirl]

And you made me someone who has to keep a secret I never wanted to keep. I was raised by someone who had so many awful secrets, and when I started my life as a Shadowhunter I wanted to do it openly, and honestly. But now I’m just someone else with secrets I can never tell. Just like my dad.

[kitherondaleswf]

THAT LETTER IS THE MOST I LOVE YOU IM SORRY CODED THING IVE EVER READ

[kitty-gray]

I wholeheartedly believe that, at least from Ty's perspective, Livvy was such an elemental part of his identity that it was impossible for him to even think he could belong anywhere without her, and that that was one of his motivations for the ritual.

Then Kit, who really wanted a life with Ty, goes and says "When you brought Livvy back, you changed yourself. You made yourself a different person than the one I loved, I don't know the person you are now. You took yourself away from me. I can't forgive that." I think it's Cassandra's way to say that, by performing the ritual, Ty's perspective of not fully existing without Livvy became true. Now, they really can't be apart for too long before Ty starts dying. (There's something to say about the necklace but This Is Not That Post)

Thematically, this makes it more about identity than about the ritual per se.

So here's my take:

Ty wants Kit's forgiveness more than anything. But for Kit to forgive him, he has to be Ty again. He has to learn that there's a Ty without a Livvy. And he has to choose it for himself, because Kit would never ask Ty to choose him over Livvy. Ty has to let Livvy go to be his own person again, and it has to be his decision. (There's also something to say about the stages of grief but again: not that post)

And that's the kind of soul wretching torture character development Cassandra would makes us go through.

[d4rkshad0w]

currently reading sobh and i got to the “Kit to Ty” letter and it absolutely broke me because Ty was Kits only friend after joining the Shadowhunters and he doesn’t really have anyone to talk to about stuff or what he’s feeling (other than livvy’s ghost but kit can’t really js summon her) i also like that even after their fallout Ty is still the only person Kit wants to talk to even if he didn’t send the letter

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